Like Alex and I have dreamt about how amazing it would be to plant some nice little (or big) churches in Colombia. He has such a heart for that place and hearing him talk about being there is like a dream.
I have often day dreamed of moving to the country (see- Nashville, Chattanooga, Memphis, Alabama, Arkansas) and planting a nice little family church in a small town and raising my kids to understand and gain the wisdom only learned through making it on your own with what you've got. Making the best of things.
I have many times said how I would love to get out of the city. Alex says he believes that in my heart of hearts, I find joy in the nostalgia of walking to the local coffee shop to meet a friend or sit with the dog and have some tea. Maybe he's right, but I'd easily give it all up if God was sending me somewhere new.
I can hear you now, saying, "the grass isn't always greener." And this isn't really about that. I think as a believer and follower of Christ we get these grand ideas about how God is going to use us in the world. We see this big God (which he is) and expect an extravagant mission field.
Have you considered that your extravagant mission is right where you are right now? Have you considered that God wants you to seek Him and not a place in this world?
I've had an extremely hard time with this. I'm a dreamer. Alex often asks me what is on my mind and I come up with the most off the wall ideas. He always says "okay," or "let's do it." Sometimes he simply says, "yes!" And he's serious. He'll follow me to the ends of the earth. But there's a catch: he says yes knowing that I'll take a step back into reality. He knows exactly what I'm seeking, usually before I do.
I've realized something half way through my 28th year: my ministry is here. Home. Taking care of grandma, my babies, my husband. Maybe once I prove to God that I believe in me the way he does, he'll use me in other places. But I need to love on this ministry and bring all of the light in the world to it. Because this is where God led me, this is where God needs me, and this is where God wants me. This is my Extravagant Mission.